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EhhOhh !♥
♥Sunday, February 07, 2010
   Hello Mother-Father , yesterday was quite fun though . free from problems . just that moment . school is as usual . weekends past just like a blink of an eye . sometimes i feel that im should be out from this house . so i could escape from problems . i never fail to pretend . i could be an actress . not boasting , its just that ive lied too much . especially to myself . each day , i thought && felt that im getting uglier . i tried to pick up smoking . but i just could not find the pleasures of it . now another problem popped . i wanna escape from it . but i weak , God . too weak . i need an angel . need it now , totally . i just want some warmth around me . until when must i pretend ? you couldn't imagine what kinda liar i am when im outside . i lied too much . dont misunderstood me , people . im very honest when it comes to serious matters . but Family Matters , let me just share with you a short summary . then FULLSTOP . but it isn't the same how ive gone through it . && now , im going through it ALONE . i need energy , im getting weaker everyday . you don't know how it feels to see your sibling fought with your parents .. , your both parents happily enjoying while im here thinking .. , i just can't stop this tears from welling in my eyes , everydayy .. its have always been me being the middle person . to stop evereything but it will never end . it will still continue . what if im not here ? it will be worse . i had enough . pray that ill have an angel by my side soon . that may help to lessen my burden . really . P/s: i dont wanna waste my tears no more . please God . Labels: iyrahh♥ |
♥iyrahh♥7-teen ;210993 crazy , nonsense , kecohrable ! typical girl who just spent her time laughing at dumb things . deeply inlove with Masyam ! heh. |