♥iyrahh♥.

WTFLL ?

i super duper mad . firstly , im currently having PMS . lol , being honest here , HELLO ! im having my first day of blood leaking .. ewww , im being kinda disgusting , HAHA ! secondly , BOTH OF MY BESTFRIENDS AREN'T GOING TO THE CHALET ! im sad && angry . i will be so lonely seyy . not really lahh but thenn come on lahh .. no fun sia like that . alot of people are not attending the chalet && people that attend have to pay alot . puhhlease think about others ley . i thought 4D is a united class . maybe im wrong , maybe im right . i pity Faith cause she really putting up alot of effort to make this chalet happen for all of us you know .

P/s:lovely thoughts might be a nightmare .

Labels: i beg you leyy .

shocked !

cute ? totally ! haaha . yahh the subject for today is SHOCKED . i was shocked that today , i opened up the bottle that have been kept in the dusty cabinet for so long . get what i mean ? what i meant was that i told my two bestfriends mostly everything about my situation right now .. feelings . well , it was not because i was thirsty but i was actually random you see .. thats why i was shocked . well , surprise , surprised ! indeed i was .

Maths O level paper 1 today .. it was not badly done .. i did all the questions with enthusiasm but certainly have no confidence in getting a dinctintion . im not aiming high cause i know i wont get it && wont have any confidence because that confidence might be too over BUT a pass would certainly give me a sense of joy . seriously . && tomorrow , my instincts tell me that the paper 2 will be really dificult . OHH FATHER FUCKER !

Guys , you might think i am stupid BUT i have decide that maybe i would rather choose to go ITE than to be promoted to sec 5 . yah .. yah.. yah.. STUPID BITCH ? fuck yourself . i thought that maybe moving on to a new enviroment might be a stepping stone for me . My Bestfriends && I will make the confirmation when we have seen our results . Oh Mother ! im so scared like a pussy cat . HAHA ! everyone is scared right ? so dont ever criticize me because there is also some other people who are feeling far worse than me .

P/s: the poetry i wrote for you those days brings tears to my eyes whenever i read it .

Labels: slap me puhlease .

Deep thoughts !

Hello there fellow readers . This show is fantasticly amazing to me .. its funny && romantic . blahh .. blahh .. blahh .. the first time i watch it was before the show was out in Singapore . Shh ! today , i got to know my father bought this movie && so i was patheticly bored at home ALONE again ! before i continue my story .. the first time i watched this movie was when i am with mummy at home .. && one part of the movie i was in tears . OHH SHUT UP ! i know im freaking emotional but HEY ! everyone have a soft side in them , right ? actually , this is one of the reason i reject some of my friends asking me out to the movie .. HAHA ! pathetic ? well its true . && so get back to the story .. i was so angrossed && concentrating with the movie && never thought i would cry again like that time but fuck ! i did cried ! shut up !

But what made me wonder is the feeling in me .. its a mixture of jealousy && sadness .. what is this ? why must i feel this way , people ? anyone have explanations ? maybe i miss those hugs && kisses from my special love one .. but where is that person now ? NOWHERE . lol . but then , i felt happy when im single .. freaking freedom .. not being flirtious but then i didnt have anyone to control me by saying 'you are not suppose to do this && that ' . well , everything is different now .. && i guess this is what have been written in the book && i sincerely accept it . really ! sometimes :PP

Girlfriend :Honey , can you pass me my bag?

Boyfriend : hey bitch ! get it yourself .

Labels: tears like bitch

Liar !

i certainly dont understand why do guys love to lie . i hate people who says they wanna do it but end up NOTHING ! isnt that the same as empty promises . A person call my hp to chit chat , another minute another person will start to interupt by calling my hp . BUT when my hp is silent .. theres NOTHING . fuck ! seriusly .. i hate this game siak . what i meant by a lie is that , he says he will call back at night . && FUCK YOU ! i waited like some kind of retarded bitch till 6 am ! why am i so stupid ? why am easily trick by another human being ? does it always happen in nature ? NO ANSWERS ! call me in the afternoon kept apologising && i forgived him . so easily . but then the next day which is yesterday HE FREAKING DID THE FUCKING SAME THING ! fuck fuuck fuuuuck ! i slept in the morning near to 7 am .. its not because im dumbly waiting for his call , its because i cant sleep . what i did was watching a stupid show which i barely understand after that i end up thinking about my life , problems && in the future . im scared ; felt as if i am naked in the middle of North Pole . what should i do people ? kill myself ? yahh , i should .

SWEET TALKER FATHER FUUUUUCKER ! NABEY CHIBAI .

Labels: anger . prangai babi sial .

I said .

These people are my laughing gas . After since i have been single , they are the monkeys i hang out with . Inculding my Mummy . I dont think she allows me to post her picture as she would say ' Eh delete lah , nnti aku sepak muke kau .' HAHA . in english ; Eh , Go delete before i slap your face . i have studied her lines very well indeed . the way we talk to each other as if we are like friends . best friends . && she is really open minded && easy going whereby loves to say vulgarities .

Friends would ask me what did i do in these period of time . I would answer back ; nowhere . well , this is what i meant by my life is dull . To && Fro from Bedok to Kallang , Or Kallang to Bedok . but when some friends of mine would asked me out , i would reject . its not that i am a snob , im just not ready to go out with a new person && start all the sharings && stuff . Some would understand but some wouldn't . Secondly , im broke .

Hey sexy , you know what ? PUCK YOU .

iyrahh:compliecatedLife

Labels: babi hutan. lol

19th birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 19 , BELOVED BROTHER !

Friends everywhere but not the Special ones .

these days i spent my time with my family .. with Epul && Ezam .. Both kaki gerek . Well , besides that life have been really simple to me . i thought of working but to think back maybe i should concentrate on my O's first right ?

i am really confused about the problems that i am facing right now . Once , i was fond of someone , that someone said he is insecure && now he have been avoiding me . to think back , what he said was right . never wanted a relationship even if its not 100 % . i aint desperate for him but just thought that maybe i could change his mindset but it NEVER happen that way . As another time for just being myself , people get fond of me . End up breaking that other party heart for being honest .

People , to be honest . im not yet living in peace .. i still have not fully move on . i still kept the msg when i && him broke up .. i would still be in tears when i think about it . && IMPORTANTLY it still does hurt me when i see those memories . what i have plan is , to admire someone ; just a simple someone to make me forget about him && totally move on . i thought i already did but i was wrong . soo wrong . im still waiting to have a special person to coach me in these things .. to be strong && delete those messages . i just couldn't do it myself . im totally weak inside . i don't really feel the resilence in me anymore . && i dont know where to get help .

I WAS A STRONG GIRL . BUT DEEP INSIDE , MY HEART HAVE BECOME TOO TIRED . BUT I KNOW SOMETHING THAT NEVER CHANGE IS THE SMILE ON MY FACE . && I KNOW I WILL ALWAYS HAVE IT EVEN HOW MISERABLE I FEEL INSIDE . EVENTHOUGH EVERY NIGHT I PRAY TO

GOD TO TAKE ME AWAY BUT I REALISE LIFE IS SHORT TO BE WASTED .

iyrahh:complicatedLife

Labels: pray hard n die

Sweat Like A Pig

Im freaking tired right now . you know why ? because today went to school to have my N level Additional Mathematics Paper 2 . its terribly difficult . as if my brain is so weak to think deeply for the formulae && workings . BUT yaaaaaays ! N level is freak done . left O level Maths && O level Retake MT . well , bored but i am quite relief . after the exam , wanted to go home with Yi Ling(Faith) but ended up we went to Pasir Ris Park to book the chalet for 4D ! woohoo ! im soo damn excited you knoww , *winkwink* lols . i && Faith met 'her/his' aunty && so we went to aloha loyang . the places is so unique && nice . i know it will be so happening on the 2,3&&4 november , right my dear 4D ? loool . Until here darlass . im tired . cos i kept sweating because of the weather && the long walk . Tata !

Labels: hot hot heat

Sickening

i am being sincere to be a friend of anyone . i dont choose && i dont judge . come to me && i will treat you like my own friend eventhough i have just known you . you asked me to leave this friendship ; ill swear that i rather gave up then leaving . i am a person who really treasure friendships . i dont know how to hate a person . you hurt me , you get the retribution from God is what i always believe . Karma baby . im sincere in everything , you make me cry , i cry but only for a minutes thats why i believe i am strong in the inside . BUT when i blow up , you really have to get away from me .
These days , my life is terribly lonely && boring . its not because of i have no friends . is just that i miss being pampered by someone I love && someone who love me. its okaay , i aint being that dramatic but just letting what i think .

To that someone :
i am sorry that my words hurt you . i may not know how you felt but honestly i tried to put myself in your shoes . it is hurtful but its not the same how hurtful i am going through . its difficult to tell a person like you because you wont understand . i believe there is someone better to be there for you . i would really wanna say one million thanks to you for everything && i do appreciates it . i swear . all i could repay is by praying to God for you . i really hope you understand my situation . by doing this to me , you being selfish . so get that in mind . i really enjoy being with you AS A FRIEND . you are really sweet && i know one day , someone will treasure you like i should . insya'Allah .

iyrahh;complicatedLife

Labels: confused, sorry

Potluck

Hey people ! i know i took a long time to update about my potluck . Well my dearest friends turn up && we chit chated . Firstly it was quite boring because all of them were so quiet && shy . but then , when we started to play games && smoke sheesha i swear that i really enjoy the day ! one million thanks to my dearest friend ; Mr Shahrulizad . he bought my birthday cake , bring the sheesha things && give me a gift which is so expensive that i think twice in accepting the lovely gift . thanks to Mr Ajen ; having brains about games that we played . its like chaotic sey the games ; we played 'who, huh , what ? bluff . Taitee . Police&&murderer . ChopChillyChop etc' for people who didnt manage to turn up , i pity you guys cause we super duper HAD FUN ! Thanks to my dearest Ddy for the cute pink teddybear , my dearest Ajen for the Rose Sakura , my dearest Shahrulizad for the Escada ocean lounge perfume;cake,sheesha-ing && Hazrina for the purple hairband gift at that dayy . && for the rest of my dearest friends&&family who came .

♥iyrahh♥
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