♥iyrahh♥.

EhhOhh !♥

Hello Mother Father ,

okays lahh ..

i update okay .

A maths is a total fucked up .

Malay average .

English same situation as A maths .

Social Studies .. err .. no comment .

soon to come three test in a day .

wtffff !

nvm .

im like hanging on a rope at the egde now .

i hope im gonna have an angel by my side soon .

serius .

i wannnnnaaaaa go KLLLLL !

pretty please .

oh God , i wanna plss plss escape from problems for the meantime .

maybe it will work ..

make the plan work .

pls .

i have alot of things to share but dunno where to start from .

so i think i should wait till the moment where i really feel that i should share ,

then i will share .

not in time yet . (:

P/s : Disappointed .

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EhhOhh !♥

Hello Mother-Father ,

yesterday was quite fun though .
free from problems .

just that moment .

school is as usual .

weekends past just like a blink of an eye .

sometimes i feel that im should be out from this house .

so i could escape from problems .

i never fail to pretend .

i could be an actress .

not boasting ,

its just that ive lied too much .

especially to myself .

each day , i thought && felt that im getting uglier .

i tried to pick up smoking .

but i just could not find the pleasures of it .

now another problem popped .

i wanna escape from it .

but i weak , God .

too weak .

i need an angel .

need it now , totally .

i just want some warmth around me .

until when must i pretend ?

you couldn't imagine what kinda liar i am when im outside .

i lied too much .

dont misunderstood me , people .

im very honest when it comes to serious matters .

but Family Matters , let me just share with you a short summary .

then FULLSTOP .

but it isn't the same how ive gone through it .

&& now , im going through it ALONE .

i need energy , im getting weaker everyday .

you don't know how it feels to see your sibling fought with your parents .. ,

your both parents happily enjoying while im here thinking .. ,

i just can't stop this tears from welling in my eyes ,

everydayy ..

its have always been me being the middle person .

to stop evereything but it will never end .

it will still continue .

what if im not here ?

it will be worse .

i had enough .

pray that ill have an angel by my side soon .

that may help to lessen my burden .

really .

P/s: i dont wanna waste my tears no more . please God .

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EhhOhh !♥

Hello Mother-Father ,

now its time to make my dead blog alive again .

theres alot of things i would like to share .

but ,

i can't bring myself to list it one by one .

you guys might know how it feels to be lonely ..

i hate it when im alone .

i will tend to think ..

think negatively .. burden .. life .. everything .

it led me being paranoid .

i hate being lonely .

i hate it when i couldn't share my thoughts .. couldn't show my love to someone special .

i wouldn't wanna show it to a friend .

it will end up hurt us both .

for example , like now .

i was just being myself .

end up .. not only one started falling for me ..

im not boasting or what .. but why must the one that fall for me isn't the one for me ?

i just could not have any feelings for them .

other than feelings for a friend .

i wish they could know how miserable i felt not to have the feeling of admiring a person .

i would love to think of someone everynight , to hold hands when cross the road , etc .

i wanna be myself .

i wanna be original .

i dun wanna hurt anyone , nor i wanna hurt myself .

i wanna have boyfriend .

noo .. not a boyfriend .

i want someone who is sincere that can treat me how i wish to be treated ;

so i can love him like how i want to .

im sincere .. sincere helping human beings around me ..

but would they understand that theres not much i will get after helping them .

all i get is .. im proud of myself .

proud of helping my friends .. showing them how sincere i am being their lovable friend .

Ohh God .

cubalah kau memahami ku pada masa ini .

P/s: i rather die to leave without ..

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