♥iyrahh♥.

EhhOhh !♥

Hello Mother Father ,

i hate myself .

totally .

is it me myself who changed ?

a lot of things happened today .

i cried in school .. was being too sensitive i think ?

but then .. now ..

i really feel irritated .

irritated with my OWN self .

what does that mean ?

what i do in life will never be right .

when i think it will be fine , it will surely turn out to be bad .

what the hell ?!

this is why i prefer not to have confidences in myself .

im tired . sick && tired .

going through all of this alone .

when is the time i will get someone to accompany me together in this ?

when can someone win my heart ?

well , i think i know the answer .

not now .

sadlyyyyyyy .. when i need an angel at most ..

the angel is nowhere .

i miss you .. but why are you doing this to me .

you know my problems .. yet .. i still get this shit .

i want to be happy again .

please .

P/s: im dying inside . can someone save me ?

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EhhOhh !♥

Hello Mother-Father ,

i dunno what happened to me yesterday .

well , my mood swings is getting bad to worse .

i know the reasons though .

first thing was , im taking my medication ; secondly , PMS .

got to know today i had my menses .

but what happened yesterday was something that i have been keeping it to myself .

i really explode like a time bomb .

i spilt all the feelings i felt to him .

but he didn't seems to care .

or maybe he did but its just that he didn't know how to show ?

i kept it to myself because im scared that ill be over-reacting .

but then , this is how i felt .. i can't bottle it up anymore ..

its killing me .. torturing me .

it really took me alot of courages to make the decision on giving up on you .

you said i didn't sacrifice ?

don't you know .. i did sacrifice .. i did sacrifice to WAIT for you whereas i miss you terribly .

i tried to control it without bothering you .. because im worried that ill be annoying to you .

i waited for your calls && msg-es .

when you called , its not even 5 mins && you said you got some other errands to do .

you gave an excuse that you are busy ?

but why , when i first know you , we can chit chat longer than that ?

isn't that an excuse ?

come on , i told you .. i prefer people to tell it straight to my face that you dont like me ..

rather than you give me hopes .

theres others who wants to appreciate me for who i am .

why do i still wait for you ?

because i do care for you && its shows that i am faithful .

but nothing pays off . its all wasted .

i dont wanna be told that im desperate for you ..

cos im NOT !

get this straight .

appreciate me or leave me .

YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY GUY IN THIS WORLD !

okay im done .

people , i miss blogging .

seriusly i do .

sec 5 is really tough .. trying my best though .

P/s: i really really miss you , but i just dont wanna be treated this way .

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