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EhhOhh !♥
♥Wednesday, November 24, 2010
 Hello Mother Father , its been decades. yes, indeed. but somehow, i can't seem to spill the words out from my mind. i will try. so.. here i go. I understand. ;your love for me have faded. im sure it will vanish soon. im not the girl you are proud to be with anymore. im the girl that creates a lot of burdens in your beautiful perfect life. i have nothing special in me to bring something new into your life. i have never lighten & brighten up your life the whole time. i never try to understand you & give yourself a space. all i did, is depend too much on you. But.. i did that because i love you. maybe a little too much. i even missed you until i shed tears. i couldn't tell you why.. i said i was stupid just to hide my embarrassment. my tongue was too numb.. so i prefer to tell you this way.. if you happen to read this though.. i miss how we treated each other so special.. we shared the moments & stories about how we never been treated this way. do you remember all that? i hope you do, because i did. However, haven't you realise what had happen to us? im not gonna elaborate though but im very sure you understand what i mean. or maybe this happens to show signs that we both are actually not meant for each other? i can't bring myself to face that fact.. because i dont wanna let you go.. i need you. but how can i try to escape whereas theres no exit doors. therefore.. if you wanna leave me.. i let you go.. but dont tell me im heartless but.. ive let you go because i love you so much. even if i let you go. your still with me. where? a place where no one could enter but only you. a room painted red but no windows or any doors. my heart. im shedding tears while typing this. its been too long i kept this in me. when i tried to explain.. i do not dare. im sorry for asking you to leave me alone. but seriously.. if only i could tell you that i wanted you to be with me everytime,not even a second without you. i love you. so much.. believe me,baby. P/s: hardest decision ever. painful but just can't do it. Labels: iyrahh♥ |
♥iyrahh♥7-teen ;210993 crazy , nonsense , kecohrable ! typical girl who just spent her time laughing at dumb things . deeply inlove with Masyam ! heh. |