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EhhOhh !♥
♥Thursday, January 14, 2010
 Hello Mother Father , i hate myself . totally . is it me myself who changed ? a lot of things happened today . i cried in school .. was being too sensitive i think ? but then .. now .. i really feel irritated . irritated with my OWN self . what does that mean ? what i do in life will never be right . when i think it will be fine , it will surely turn out to be bad . what the hell ?! this is why i prefer not to have confidences in myself . im tired . sick && tired . going through all of this alone . when is the time i will get someone to accompany me together in this ? when can someone win my heart ? well , i think i know the answer . not now . sadlyyyyyyy .. when i need an angel at most .. the angel is nowhere . i miss you .. but why are you doing this to me . you know my problems .. yet .. i still get this shit . i want to be happy again . please . P/s: im dying inside . can someone save me ? Labels: iyrahh♥ EhhOhh !♥
♥Wednesday, January 13, 2010
 Hello Mother-Father , i dunno what happened to me yesterday . well , my mood swings is getting bad to worse . i know the reasons though . first thing was , im taking my medication ; secondly , PMS . got to know today i had my menses . but what happened yesterday was something that i have been keeping it to myself . i really explode like a time bomb . i spilt all the feelings i felt to him . but he didn't seems to care . or maybe he did but its just that he didn't know how to show ? i kept it to myself because im scared that ill be over-reacting . but then , this is how i felt .. i can't bottle it up anymore .. its killing me .. torturing me . it really took me alot of courages to make the decision on giving up on you . you said i didn't sacrifice ? don't you know .. i did sacrifice .. i did sacrifice to WAIT for you whereas i miss you terribly . i tried to control it without bothering you .. because im worried that ill be annoying to you . i waited for your calls && msg-es . when you called , its not even 5 mins && you said you got some other errands to do . you gave an excuse that you are busy ? but why , when i first know you , we can chit chat longer than that ? isn't that an excuse ? come on , i told you .. i prefer people to tell it straight to my face that you dont like me .. rather than you give me hopes . theres others who wants to appreciate me for who i am . why do i still wait for you ? because i do care for you && its shows that i am faithful . but nothing pays off . its all wasted . i dont wanna be told that im desperate for you .. cos im NOT ! get this straight . appreciate me or leave me . YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY GUY IN THIS WORLD ! okay im done . people , i miss blogging . seriusly i do . sec 5 is really tough .. trying my best though . P/s: i really really miss you , but i just dont wanna be treated this way . Labels: iyrahh♥ |
♥iyrahh♥7-teen ;210993 crazy , nonsense , kecohrable ! typical girl who just spent her time laughing at dumb things . deeply inlove with Masyam ! heh. |