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Friends everywhere but not the Special ones .
♥Monday, October 19, 2009
 these days i spent my time with my family .. with Epul && Ezam .. Both kaki gerek . Well , besides that life have been really simple to me . i thought of working but to think back maybe i should concentrate on my O's first right ? i am really confused about the problems that i am facing right now . Once , i was fond of someone , that someone said he is insecure && now he have been avoiding me . to think back , what he said was right . never wanted a relationship even if its not 100 % . i aint desperate for him but just thought that maybe i could change his mindset but it NEVER happen that way . As another time for just being myself , people get fond of me . End up breaking that other party heart for being honest . People , to be honest . im not yet living in peace .. i still have not fully move on . i still kept the msg when i && him broke up .. i would still be in tears when i think about it . && IMPORTANTLY it still does hurt me when i see those memories . what i have plan is , to admire someone ; just a simple someone to make me forget about him && totally move on . i thought i already did but i was wrong . soo wrong . im still waiting to have a special person to coach me in these things .. to be strong && delete those messages . i just couldn't do it myself . im totally weak inside . i don't really feel the resilence in me anymore . && i dont know where to get help . I WAS A STRONG GIRL . BUT DEEP INSIDE , MY HEART HAVE BECOME TOO TIRED . BUT I KNOW SOMETHING THAT NEVER CHANGE IS THE SMILE ON MY FACE . && I KNOW I WILL ALWAYS HAVE IT EVEN HOW MISERABLE I FEEL INSIDE . EVENTHOUGH EVERY NIGHT I PRAY TO GOD TO TAKE ME AWAY BUT I REALISE LIFE IS SHORT TO BE WASTED . iyrahh:complicatedLife Labels: pray hard n die |
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